i've been feeling really odd & transitional lately, even though things have been static for a few months.
feels like something is on the horizon and my brain is getting me ready.
so summer classes don't start until june 11th. 2 whole more months! ugh. i want to go now. mostly to feel productive for a few weeks before i get shitfaced for a week straight in Vegas for my 21st and also because i want to see professor kary. but i feel like if i wait until then to talk it will be utterly too late...but i have no idea what to write/say now.
i'm seriously considering just stopping by his office and getting it over with when i meet up with jennifer on thursday. i'd do it tuesday so i don't have to bother with talking to her afterwards, but he's got a late night class on mondays which means tuesday morning will find him in a touchy mood. fuck, i'm going to figure out what to do this next week, i have to, i've ignored it for too long.
god, i need a job. i've been trawling craigslist & the like and there is nothing around here. now i'm going to just start filling out applications everywhere close, regardless of whether they're 'hiring' or not. i want to start saving for a car & an apartment, and with minimum wage at $7.50/hr and the average single around here $1,000/month, i need to get a gigantic headstart if i intend to move by January.
growing up sucks.
also, i'm kinda feeling like i want a boyfriend. i still stand by the fact that ALL relationships fail, whether or not the parties involve admit to it (by means of breaking up/divorcing), but i'm getting strong internal feelings of wanting to get involved with someone. so odd. </font>
I'm unemployed, yet again. My stint at American Girl was fun & enjoyable, but ended in January. I went on a crazy job hunt for a while but nooone is hiring. :/ Focusing my energy my website for now.
My love life akin to the Sahara. Funnily, I'm not torn up about it. Time is on my side and I just can't stand so many people.
In other news, I'm really upset with John because he's being a dick and forgetting about, not just me, but all of his friends down here. Plus, I don't not like his new girlfriend, she seems nice & all, but he's changed himself to better suit the kind of person she & her friends are...just pisses me off badly. He also got a tattoo (ON HIS WRIST) and I know his thoughts on school are going downhill and now I'm pretty convinced he'll never get to law school.
This from the boy I was certain would make it to Congressman, if not President as he hoped. :(
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Otherwise, things are okay. I'm alive & healthy. And I want to see Blades of Glory!
- Music:The Order of the Phoenix - Audiobook
I got hired for a temp position with Nielsen EDI today. Monday-Friday, 9-4 @ $8.50/hr with an hour unpaid lunch. I call/fax/email schools across the country & Canada to find out their school calendars. I enter the info onto paper and then computer. They use it to release movies at optimum school-age viewership times. It's so perfect because I still have my weekends, I'd be home before my mom (so it won't interfere with dining out), and the job ends in perfect time for me to take a summer course during the last session. Sweet.
Other news: Still greatly concerned over major choice. Considering switching back to childhood development but how to tell Kary? I could stay involved in the club but it might be weird. Oh well, I'll put that out of my mind for now because other things are great.
We leave for Vegas (yes, again) tomorrow evening. Staying until Sunday. Two of my credit cards gave me credit line increases days ago, without my asking. Oh dear.
- Mood:
happy - Music:Eagles of Death Metal - I Want You So Hard
-i really, really want to go to London. visit for now, but eventually move to the the UK..?
-i have absolutely no idea what i want to do, career-wise.
the latter being the most important, i've naturally devoted less time to the matter.
anthropology? what i am even going to do with that? i don't know. maybe i should just go back to nursing. :/ or further pursue cinema. but nursing really is the most logical choice..done in just a couple more years, good pay, not entirely terrible job.
i'll never end up with something i'm 100% about anyway. i've been career-hunting since middle school...if i can't decide by now, i never will.
and i really need to get over my fear of flying. terrorism's at the bottom of the list as to why i fear it..it's more the whole thing of if anything goes slightly wrong and we crash we all die. yeah.
this rain is great but wet jeans are not.
- Location:the school library
- Mood:
confused - Music:coldplay
MySpace: The Movie
Curious George.
now, i used to enjoy the books in preschool/kindergarten, but my annoyance did not arise until semi-recently.
he's referred to as a "little monkey".
MONKEYS HAVE TAILS
last i checked, this little bastard was without tail and was supposed to be a chimpanzee (which is NOT a monkey, but rather an ape).
what ridiculousness to let this whole "monkey" stuff go on so long! this is 1000x worse than the parents at the zoo who point their kids in the direction of Lowland Gorillas and proclaim, "Sarah, look at the monkey!".
and of course, in the new movie, despite not being ass-backwards when it comes to animals today, he has NO TAIL but the ads read...
well you know what Universal, Brian Grazer & Ron Howard, show me the monkey. show me a damn MONKEY in your movie and i will crap a diamond.
( Crush & Nemo! )
yep, my crafty bone has been aching lately, so i exercised it. today i'm going to *try* and make another felt cell phone case. i was semi-happy with the last one, but i sewed it all wonky and it looks a wee bit off.
i'd need bare minimum of $2,500 just to secure an apartment (cheapest singles right around here are $1,000-$1,100, but a lot are higher), figuring they ask for 1st month's rent & a deposit of the same amount and assuming rent rates stay where they are.
( severely in-depth calculations on moving out )
good GOD, that was long and annoying, i am so sorry. this has been eating away my brain for a few days now and i just needed to figure it all out....i haven't, but this helped.
plus i'm upset because no one is buying my crap from eBay and i'm trying to get rid of those damn DVDs and make like $20 in the process. argh. and no one's buying my mom's friend's software either! that's most upsetting because if it sells i get a cool 10% commission. buy business owners, buy!
( rantings about school )
so this rant was self-centered but i'm getting panic attacks thinking about this stuff so i've been shoving it away, but i really need to deal with it.
oh, merry (belated) christmas!
- Mood: confused
( spring schedule, woo. )
not entirely certain about signing over my saturdays, but if it's interesting enough i will. pretty much looking forward to everything else, though.
looking forward to my little break greatly. i'm gonna pick my guitar back up and maybe try to get halway decent. and this weekend, more holiday baking, yay! my white chocolate cranberry cookies were a smashing success in mom's office [ego-boost!], heh.
i just wish i was near snow. then i'd be sublimely happy.
- Mood:
tired - Music:beach boys - little saint nick
the sadness of coming home to continue project drudgery was overwhelming.
- Mood:
sick
bought:
+holiday cookie cutters [tree, snowman, star & snowflake]
+red & green potholders
+construction paper specifically to make a paper garland/chain, ohh yes
+red & green bubble mailers
and the house has cocoa and marshmallows and eggnog.
joy.
- Mood:festive
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strokemethere's Halloween party: 3_steps_back dressed as a Sharon's Holdings employee, though it looked more like Al Gore.
__sundaygirl dressed as a disturbing self-made character called "Zippy Liverbiscuits".
acidsodagirl dressed as the spirit of their dead grandmother Harriet.
elw00d dressed as a character from Harry Potter and the Armor of Tucson.
explodngplastic dressed as a safety for the Panthers.
gazeatthesoul dressed as a javelin.
ghettochickn dressed as a frozen angel.
greensoapmonkey dressed as the President of Martinique.
jiggy_fry dressed as a bottle of Letetra.
kimya_dawson_ dressed as a second baseman for the Cubs.
matelot dressed as the Cardinal of Pinedale.
mrs_casablancas dressed as Worf from "Star Trek".
red_lipstick dressed as a 1980's yuppie child.
saharazaad dressed as a witch.
sceneisobscene dressed as Chester A. Arthur.
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so i put my horns on because they're wicked sweet. and then i stumbled upon my camera. here is the result.
( horns, eh? )
hahahahaha.
| You're An Alcoholic |
 Time to go back to step one. |
| You Are Not Scary |
 Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet? |
| Maroon 5 Shares Your Taste in Music |
 See their whole playlist here (iTunes required) |
| You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish |
Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible. |
| You are |
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me bored? never.
- Mood:
bored out of my mind
bah, now I have to buy them over the internets and wait.( convince me that i needed these things. )
anthro test tomorrow. i've been studying like crazy for a week now even though i know this stuff inside out. aside from disappointing myself, i feel anything less than an A would be a disappointment to kary. i only recently realized that aspect of doing well...which makes me appreciate some h.s. teachers efforts a whole lot more. :)
- Mood:
busy - Music:franz
We lost our power about 12:30 this afternoon. My poor computer shut off while I was trying to update my LJ layout. When I turned to my clock and saw it was off, too, I realized "shit, we've lost the power".
I went out to see if there was an accident that had knocked out our local line, as has happened before, but no. I began to hear the sirens around town though and freaked out so I just started walking around. All the neighbors were out but of no information, so I came back home. Stupidly, though, I went to turn on the radio. After realizing that won't work, I went fishing for my old CD player that had a built-in radio and batteries, which I did not realize my household was in dire need of. So, I listened to newsradio for awhile trying to figure out just what the hell was going on...turns out damn near the whole city [somewhere like 90% of Los Angeles and major parts of neighboring cities] was experiencing power outages...really made me feel secure. 
They're now saying some DWP employee cut a cable and that they took proactive measures in shutting off power.....but that doesn't seem to explain why two cities [Glendale & Burbank] that have their own seperate municipal power co.'s lost power. 
Weird.
Alls I know is without the glory of electricity I am a sad, sad person.
- Mood:
cranky
In better news I get to go to work with my mom tomorrow. :D The temp agency keeps sending lazy gals & flakes [the last one never even showed up], so I'll be helping her organize things. Right now [she works through an RN agency that sends her on semi-temporary assignments helping reorganize clinics, getting things running smoothly for JCAHO eviews, etc] she's working here with him.
Isn't he adorable?! ::swoon:: From what I hear his wife is a bit jealous/possesive; She only agreed to marry him if he'd take her along whenever he travels and I mean whenever and everywhere.
- Mood:
nervous - Music:my brain's internal iPod is playing "What Katie Did"
